Bye UUM, hey roadtrip!

With just 4 hours of sleep, stuff packed into the car boot, a heavy heart but feeling happy at the same time, I officially left UUM at 10.45am on last Thursday. Before that, we had a little breakfast at Kg Darat '2' with the guys for the final time.

So I headed down to Sungai Petani to meet my old friends Zahirah and Nabilah for our last minute but long planned roadtrip. We roamed around Penang aimlessly, stopping by places we think they're interesting, walked around Batu Ferringhi till our legs hurt, sneaked into the Hard Rock Hotel lobby, watched a midnight Pirates movie and slept at the airport.

I am glad that we decided to make the trip happen as that was something i really needed after all the stress and exams. :D

Last day.

Yesterday was the last day of our examinations in UUM. 4 years had passed so fast, leaving sweet and bitter memories all along. A couple of days left before I'm leaving this place for good, and its making me feel sad instead of happy. I'm gonna miss everything here. All those faces I've met, the crazy things we did, the places we often lepak, the drives we took to Changloon or Jitra just because we would want to eat better food, the poker games with Jutaria money in Ungku's room, the never-ending PES batle in Shaa's room, the legendary YAB 404 zoo, the annoying janda with her kittens outside our room in SME Bank, the spaghetti moments in Yat's room, my roommate and ex-roommates (Wak, Shafiq, Barong, Raymond, Hadi, Abg Yin, Kimi) and so many more I can't list down.

 

We spent last night with a sleepover at Ijai's place with 11 of the guys - me, Raymond, Ungku, Wan, Mursyid, Shaa, Auliat, Ijai, Gajah, Afwan and Barong, since some of them are leaving today. That's the boys spirit! hehe. We cooked up a storm, ate and drank until we're bloated, made jokes here and there, and of course a lot of poker went on too. I'm soo gonna miss all the crazy little things we do, and what makes it sad is that this was probably the last time we're doing this.

Yesterday was also the last day we're called as students. After the exam, we are now officially done with our LLB. Or in other words, that qualifies us as penganggur siswazah universiti! hahaha! :D I still cant believe were done with our degree, it was sure a long journey, but at the end of it, it surely felt short. I wish I had more to spend being a student, be with friends, and more time to make amends to anyone i've hurt. And when Yat plays the Kenangan Terindah song by Samsons this morning, it makes me feel ever more sad. No more student life. Its over. Soon, boring work life awaits us.. uwaaaa... :(

Bags are being packed, a couple of boxes filled with stuff had been posted back home by poslaju, and all that's left is probably a short road trip with friends, and then its time fill up a full tank of petrol, top up the touch 'n' go card and drive back home. The next thing I'll have to worry about is to finish up my resume, and start figuring out what i'm gonna do next. My mum hinted that i should continue with masters, but hell no! Enough of studying for me right now.. A month's rest at home will do the trick, i guess..

Everybody's gonna go their separate ways soon, and it'll be interesting to see how our friends will become in many years to come. Some are getting married soon, some are starting their pupilage as soon as next week, and I'm sure, most if not all of our friends are gonna change their ways in the future, and i hope the change is for the better.

Keepin' it real

No matter how you're sad and blue
There's always someone who has it worse than you
Sometimes you gotta pay your dues
So don't worry just push on through..

If things are as bad as they can be, you can be sure there'll be a brighter tomorrow.

Again.

Today, history repeats again. Criminal Procedure II exam without CPC being provided. Oh, where's the logic? And because of that, we had to wait for 3 hours till were allowed into the exam hall since they had to photocopy the acts not only for us, but also for CPC I students. The delay may be a blessing to some, but definitely not for me. The longer I had to wait to get in the exam hall, the more cases I forget! And that also equals to 3 sub-questions left behind. 20+ marks gone man! :(

I've never felt so down after answering a paper for some time, but this definitely has to do with the delay. 3-hour delay = worry, tensed up, stomach growling and my head was getting sleepy by the hour.

The problem was I had been awake since 3am with only a couple of hours of sleep to revise the sylabus. As were about to leave Kachi, Raymond told us he received the shocking news from Auliat that there will be no CPC provided for the exam. We arrived there at 8.30, and only allowed in around 12pm. And it ended at 3 sharp when some rude kakak collected my paper. Yeap, we had to also skip the Friday prayers thanks to a lecturer who forgot to ask the HEA to provide us with the Codes. And the best part, he was not even there during the exam!

Lawyers can be good lecturers, but do they even learn from past incidents? I've heard this nonsense had been happening since a few batches ago, and still it happens. The same thing happened during last year for Mr. Burhan's CPC I paper, but at least I get to squeeze 4 hours to answer that paper! hehe :D

Dreams

The happiest thing happened to me this morning!

but.....

I woke up.

and it was only just a dream..

:(

Fast, but so furious?

Instead of studying today, Ijai and Afwan brought up the idea that we should go and catch a movie. I guess, why not? So we head towards Jitra Mall in 2 cars to catch the Fast and Furious 5 (or a.k.a the Fast 5). It was quite good, notably better than the previous sequel which was full of CGIs and some crappy storyline, if i remembered correctly.

Oh, i fell in love with the stealth black Dodge Charger SRT8 in the movie. One true modern muscle!


And here's a proof from the bet i made against Sophy. I lost weight!! And finally an ideal BMI! hahahaha :D

Bye bye Jurisprudence!

Today marked the end of a very horrible paper - Jurisprudence II! Thank goodness, and I hope I will never need to face with any jurisprudence texts ever again! I simply don't see the point of learning the subject anyway, and how its supposed to be related to our work in the future. And the way Dr. Ahmad teaches doesn't make it any easier to learn anyway. But i'm glad, its over. That leaves with just 2 more papers to go, with a 9 day gap to the next one! Yay!

After a short lunch at the kedai dobi, Sophy had to buy his ticket back home, so we head towards Changloon. Spontaneously since were there, we played 2 rounds of bowling and indulged in a couple of cool blogs (in case if you dont know, its a desert shop selling ice blended drinks which originated from Johor, according to Ungku), as a way of releasing all those stress!

Main bowling dengan baju formal, baru la style! haha

Don't ask who's Kurus, Chatur and Comel. :)

I know its sad, but its my first time winning a bowling game against 6 others!! hahaha! call me lame.. *buat muka bangga*

Hopefully with this 9 day gap, it will give me enough time to catch up with sleep, and also some space to breathe.

Hardship;

"Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe."

I tried to be strong, believe me i've tried.

But its really hard.

Happy mother's day, mama!

This morning, with around 30 minutes left to our first paper for this very last semester, that's when I received a SMS. It was from my mum, and she wrote:

"All the best 4 yr paper. Yr bros n mama r all rooting 4 u. :)"

It made my day. :)

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MAMA!

Thank you so much for everything you sacrificed for me.
Thank you for being there when I needed a person to talk to. You made me strong.
Thank you for giving me strength when i need them the most.
Thank you for making me who I am today.



Thank you for being such a strong mother, mama. If you could do it after all these years, I guess I can too..

Final leg of the race

With just about 7 hours left to my first paper, I have still have a lot of memorising to do. Numerous cases, sections from different acts, a petition and summons. My head is currently not in the best shape to memorise all these stuff, but I guess I have to try really hard.

On the bright side, there's only 5 papers to go and graduation is waiting at the finish line...You can do it, rizal..

I'm sorry friends..

I know my friends are noticing that I became 'emo' lately, and they have been talking behind my back. Yes I heard, and i admit that I have been quite moodless lately.

I have been losing appetite (I just dont feel like eating nowadays, and one meal a day is quite enough for me), been losing sleep (thanks to my irregular biological clock and those things that have been bothering my mind), I keep on daydreaming, and I lost weight too.. (I've made a bet against Sophy about that! haha) I know this is bad, especially during this last leg of final exams. As much I try to move on, the past keep on striking me back, much harder each time. I am hurt people much as I've had hurt the people I care about.

Its complicated, really.

So I'm going to make a note to myself:

• I am gonna be fine.
• I can do it!
• I have to be strong in order to live in this world.

People come and go. That's the reality. And I have to face it.

Insomnia;

I am having sleepless nights again. I have no idea why, but after weeks of observing and suffering from this weird insomnia, I realised that I cant sleep between 2am to 7am in the morning. So I tried sleeping as early as 11am last night, and still I woke up at 3 somthing feeling super fresh. I hate this, because I end up staying in bed daydreaming for many hours instead of sleeping back...

Tomorrow's the day. Our first exam paper, Civil Procedure II to be exact. I dont know if I have studied much, but even with the tips given by Mr. Ashok, I seem not to have the mood to study at all. There's so many things bothering my mind. And part of it is probably that because that I've been studying for too long here, and its almost time for us to get outta here.

Its OK Rizal, 17 more days to go, then you're a free man! *opens CP notes and pretends to study..*

What hurts the most

"What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do."


I saw you in my future. But what happened to that?

May God bless this one broken heart.
:'(

Coming to a full lap

Time passes so fast, you cant believe you're already in your final month of your final semester. We had our last class yesterday, and it was Mr. Ashok's Evidence II class. Happy faces were seen all around, taking pictures here and there, and gosh, I'm soo gonna miss all my friends! We guys also asked Mr. Ashok out for dinner in Changloon.

Some pictures and faces from the night:


It reminded me when we had our Asasi group D farewell party back in 2006. We had pizzas, cokes, games and everybody confessed what they had in mind until midnight. I remembered my car was even locked in the cempaka parking area by the guards, and as I couldnt go back home, I had to sleep in the UiTM mosque. And I got chased away after that!

These sweet memories will truly be treasured. But when I leave soon, out of all the things and people I met in UUM, definitely i'm gonna miss that one person the most. And if only she would still realise how much she meant in my life. :'(

Lost

Some things are easier be said than to be done. Its been 14 months now, but the feelings wont just fade away. Why cant a guy says that he misses a girl and everything will be happy after that?

Why do I always hurt the people I care the most? I know you will never forgive me for my mistakes. Its a question and guilt i shall have to live with everyday.